Labels: all i want is only you, boy

tdy gg out with gfs for raye...
kmak bnyk sungguh benda i wan to tel n let out but i dont tink its a gd idea la kn..
ppl might get sick of me...
saying abt hym all the tym but i have to...



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Labels: giving it a try was not even worth trying u fucker

kk im sori coz my blog was dead n i noe tt ppl are angry bcs of dt...
haha....alot of things happened to me wen i didnt update....

first of all......
shool at ite central....
there was chalet....
valentines day....
how my hart got broken....
yat tt no loonger xist in my life.....
biz................
my 18 bday was celebrated at dbl o!
haish....i dunnoe where to start....


040809
was the day md hairul wen to taiwan....
b4 all tiz my heart was broken by hym
bb,aku syg kn dier n dier uro aku luperkn dier....
bb mmbr sygkn nani.....
until nw aku tk tau dier da luper kn lom....
i take it as a yes la kn since dier da jd mataer aku on this date....
haha.....
happy??
yeah sure i was....
but i didint noe was it thwe rite decision made....
im not sure....
but i had decided so i dont think i will regret abt it.....
pray for me aites??

yat??
the day dt i went to zouk was the day i actuali tried to avoid hym but i cnt....
but then sloly we started to go far away....
finally i had a pit with cvss-ians.....
teddy called to say dt yat was caught due to some idiotics who poke his name tt he was involved in rioting....
well, till nw i haven hear a single thing from hym....

bday??
my bbi(bantal busyuk i) didnt wan to go to dbl o bcs he was to tired and sleepy....
mum didnt actuali allow to ton tt nite.....
but i pleaded her and said i was gg to celebrate my bday....
she was reluctant bcoz the next day i m skooling....
so in order to ton tt nite,i had actuali promise her tt i will go to skol the next day....next day to skol was a stoning day for me bcz i dance lyk hell at dbl....tired??
god dammit i was....
sleepy??
smstinyer lurh sey....
i went to dbl with bbi,ayil,cha,iya,(wan n alep)iya frens,ZAMIR n nazrul
if u notice i actuali uppercase zamir name....
u noe y??
its a nmiracle tt he go to club.....
he hated to go actuali but for my sake he went....
sweetest thing ever....thanks to u mir.....

gfs??
i mis them loads...
fri gg to sentosa with them lurh sey....
straight after skol pnt siol sak gini....
da g skola kene bwk aju comfem beg brat.....
my dear leha is having headaches bcz pantat itik bday is cuming....
she dint noe which cupcakes to buy for hym so help her,...
tag her blog aites.....
hatemeforwhaticare.blogapot.com

pls tag....hepl her out....
mampos kalau dier tau aku tulis gnie....
but wait aku tolong dier siak nie....
haha....skol closes in 2 mr days gerek or wat lar kn......

ite??
in ite i made news frens....
dats for sure lar kn....
there is mummy(shima)
naquiah the sick gal
timah my sweetheart
is the guy tt keeps callin me aishah
zam the one always bising
hazrul the one i call boya....
aqila my timer
kirin
hidayah my sayang
shikin the cute one........
nabirah kaki gerek aku.eunice n gennette the ones look like mly
mira n iqa the mia person
sanjiv the dog(befrender of the clas)
well i cnt be possible saying each n every one of them soon i will put all thier names...thats for sure....
aku type seme panjang giler la post nie....
haha...............
well currently doing my bpf project...
sumtyms i wonder y the hell m i doing my projects if tt damn tcher hates me n cant b bothered towards me??
isnt it true??
haha............

fernvale??
i jus miss them soo much
it has been long since i slack with them...
for what i noe...they are no longer as one....
k la gtg i will one fine day blog abt my life agsin...
haha.............

p.s
i love hym so much....
i jus dun wish to b hurt again.....
he's e nicest n understanding boifee i had............
thank you god for mekiing me fell in love n getting hym.....

its been long......

i didnt noe wat to blog abt actuali.....

k the previous post was to b secret as i tot ppl migth think tt my blog went dead n nvr go to my blog...

but i was superb wrong....

adk,leha,bob,yanti,iya all of them knew abt it........
k la aper2 jek......

idk whether im taking this as rushing or as slow as possible....
well im confuse with my feelings...
idk...
i love hym yet im still ragu2 nk nn dier...
i just knew hym...
i dont reali know hu he is........
i noe alot mof things abt his past tt reali scared me...
n i wan to help hym in changing hymself to b a better prsn...
i reali hope i cn....
well....
i m reali confuse n scared...
i had failed in love alot...
n now it reali makes me feel so scared to fall in love again...
i had a hard tym...
seriously...
im just so confuse by u....
i reali wish i culd figure all tiz things asap...

gtg..........
my week is spent with my loves ones at the beach...
when will the rest ever join us back lyk last tym....

HIDAYAT BIN SUHAIMI is the guy that is now trying to win my heart...
we met at ecp...
061208 that is the date...
was ton-ing with adek,yanti,leha,iya,ajan,nana,bob
he was with his frens...
i dont noe...
i tink my frens wuld disagree with me knl2 nan dier...

adek dun reali lyk those guys..
she tinks tt those guys step gerek...
but the fact is tt...
they are fun with their stupid jokes...
eventhough some of them are rude...
at first,i had a bad impression on them since tt day nana was super drunk after she drank those water that they had given her...
then iya too got drunk...
but hes still concious...cumer seey jek...

then at ard 4 in the morning the guys came over n wanted to crack stupid lame jokes with us...
at ard 7++ flame,the one kept disturbing leha,played soo called a fortune telling game..
yanti had her rltsp told with her bf...n their love life wuld b a long lasting one...
b4 leha head home her's was being told too...
but in her's there wuld b some probs...
then it was my turn....
i had to put someone's name...
it turn out we are not too far n not too close...but there wuld b other gal in the rltshp...
then flame suggested that to try mine n yayat's name...
to my shock it turn out that we are super close...

then i had to head of back to chalet to book out...
da book out head of to kakak's crib...
i on the comp to log into frensta n msn...
then there it was a request to b my fren...
from hidayat...
since i was bored i chatted with hym.....
then stupid thngs happen that made me n hym get closer..
i reali mean closer...
he wanted us to b more..but i say i had to noe hym first...
n he has to prove to me abt the feelings he had for me...
he also have to gain my trust back on guys...
i told hym that hes a bad guy for me...that the 1st impression i had...
but da 1 day knl nan dier hes not wat i assume he was...
i got scolded for using vulgar he corrected my language to much sophiscated word...
he had tatoo(s)...i hTed guys having tatoo.
he said he would b removing it asap...
i dun trust that...
hes working as a personal driver...
he wuld b receivg a car since hes aunty going to stay abroad...
he isnt that bad though...
i wish i culd xplain to my frens abt hym..
pray for mi k?
hope they culd xpect hym.........gees...
btw he did went to raya pray just now...

some ppl tot my blog went dead but actuali im juz lazy to update abt my lyf............
it wuld b ard the same lyk....
ptg kau mlm g lpk....
hahahahaha...
boring isint it???
aper nk uat....juz trying myself to avoid staying at home with mama shouting lyk crazy tarzan...
yes tarzan....shout here shout dere...pffft!!!!
sometimes i just wish dat her voice sld juz dissappear...da tkya dgr dier memekak....
but it dier diam rindu plak...
the house would b soooo empty without her n the kids...
my nieces growing older bkn maken behave...hmmmmmmmmmm...
maken nakal ader uh...
same goes for the little one...
he gets heavier as days pass,noisier,nottier,rebellious...alar everyting lar...kn sng...
but hes cute for sure...
tgk la aunty deir saper tol tk???

hahaha...i got to go now will update more...
i'll upload photos soon darling....

Labels: do i have to make the decision now??

my lyf is rocky...
after breaking up with najib ishak...
n being fucked by hym upside down...
being called a sundal haram n saying abt my bro n mom n mamaaji...
i wanted to get to noe more abt hym...
but todays all those laugther that we share just disappear...
i hate loving ppl...
i hate confessing...
i just love to love somone secretly rather thatn telling u dat i love u...
argh...
hekk shit...
my lfy as a single lAdy is a waste...
i just pray n hope everythings gona b all rigth n ok...
god bless me will u n show me the rigth path...
thank u....